I stand here...fully clothed and naked at the same time/ looking into your eyes and seeing past lives or maybe lovers past and wondering where I fit in? How did I end...up...here? Thinkingcontemplatingdebating. Wanting to be no other place in life. Ignoring all of the warning signs because this...simply feels right. Resigning myself to fate that I can no longer control. Heart busting out of a concrete mold...and softening. Trying to take off my anger and allow my emotions to go wandering. Dreaming of a day where my thoughts can simply roam free. Instead, I may let my arrogance get the best of me. My unwillingness to be a victim become the death of me. Painting pictures with words on a canvas of the mind that appears to be so callous, but its a falsity. I no longer know what I'm doing...I've allowed the most high to control my mind and I'm purging people one at a time because I'm unusually afraid of losing...you. You who makes me feel like the greatest thing in life and the smallest thing in the world. You who makes me contemplate life and not just another relationship with a girl. You who keeps me in check and checks on me from time to time. And you who don't understand the way that I've already decided to wrap myself up in you mind and make you mine. I...roam...freely. Through states of emotionality. Seeking the next battle that may finally make me a victor. Hoping that my life is not doomed to some sort of meaningless heartless disaster.
She told me she'd been hurt before...and I listened. I glanced behind her pupils and saw pain. I promised not to be the source of anymore...as long as she didn't accept my advances in vain.
-SE7EN
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